Rock-bottom

did i ever tell you i'm LDS? well, an in-active member, but a member no less. for years i've grappled with the idea of going back to church, only to be Stone-Cold-Stunner-ed back to my doubts. there are some LDS concepts that i don't think i'll ever be able to come to terms with. however, it must be said that active members are probably the most persistent people on the planet; i can't seem to shake 'em.
i'm beginning to think it's a sign. but a sign for what? i really don't know. i don't know if i'm up for another Stunner, because, let's face it - that crap hurts!

                                                                                               

my boyfriend's birthday is coming up, so i am sitting up at 3 am in despair and heartbreak. i still have no job and no immediate prospects.

i have begun posting my resume in all sorts of places i never would've dared and dream about rejection emails. this has to be rock-bottom. please let it end!