Sunday, November 14, 2010
What would Hodgins have done?
A little while ago I found one upside down by my bathroom door. This episode made me furious, scared, and sad. Fear was my initial reaction for obvious reasons. I was (am) furious because after all the efforts the apartment complex made us put forth in order to exterminate all those bugs - there it was laying there, antennae stretched out to me. I, of course, had the boyfriend get rid of it. But before he came to dispose of the thing, I watched it laying there on it's back for a few seconds. Then I was sad.
It was dying.
I wondered where it came from. At first I thought I'd scope out where it came from to investigate a possible nest, or whatever those bug lairs are called. But now I am actually wondering; where did it come from? It was a rather large bug, so it must have had a long life, relative to bug standards anyway. How did it survive all the sprays and powders that were supposed to kill them all? Was it the last one? (Please let it be!)
And, what was it thinking, laying there on it's back, knowing it was about to die? It must have known.
Hmmm.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Happy Bday, OC! This one's for you, cherie!
I say again, "Happy Bday, OC! This one's for you, cherie!"
Friday, October 22, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Told you my drawings were getting better
I ♥ Caska
*In reference to previous post
For awesome drawing of Caska CLICK HERE
OR, just, um, scroll down. :P
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Need a distraction
Sometimes I wonder if I had been able to witness some of these disturbing films, literature, and the like, whether or not I would be able to handle them now. Is seeing or thinking about human cruelty, nature, or fear-inducing images at an early age like being administered a vaccine against disease? If it is, then I most certainly missed out and have not grown an immunity of any sort.
In other words, I'm drinking diet coke, sleep-deprived, and officially freaked out.
Monday, August 16, 2010
True Love
But I don't. I mean, I can't. So instead I tell her I'm going to noogie her really hard. Like really hard.
*insert evil laugh*
Friday, August 6, 2010
Damn, I was going for "pensive."
if you did, what would it say?
i've asked myself this question a thousand times, but i can never really pin the answer. it's almost as if my story has a million beginnings, but they never really add up to much more than a few failed ideas. this saddens me.
i suppose my problem lies in the fact that i don't really know what i want for myself. don't get me wrong - i want stuff. i want to be stuff. i want to create. but i don't know what i'm meant to be, or have, or to create. and it is frustrating.
in other news: i ate way too much pizza. like the sickening, full-until-tomorrow's-lunch kind of too much. and it's making me feel doubly saddened.
Monday, July 26, 2010
long time no type
what is it about miniature things that makes them so lovable? perhaps it's the vulnerability. like kittens. they're so tiny and fragile and i just want to scoop them up and squish them. sometimes i think there's a Lennie (from Of Mice and Men) in everyone - except that most of us eventually learn limits. freakin' Lennie. what the heck, right?
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Rock-bottom
i'm beginning to think it's a sign. but a sign for what? i really don't know. i don't know if i'm up for another Stunner, because, let's face it - that crap hurts!
my boyfriend's birthday is coming up, so i am sitting up at 3 am in despair and heartbreak. i still have no job and no immediate prospects.
i have begun posting my resume in all sorts of places i never would've dared and dream about rejection emails. this has to be rock-bottom. please let it end!
Friday, June 11, 2010
old blog. a little too old.
anyway. my internet has been out at my house. apparently we've been a whole month behind on the thing and have only been paying the previous month's debt this whole time. since i'm not prepared to pay the whole amount as of yet, the internet will have to wait. in other words - so will you. (in terms of reading this blog.)
a few days ago the aparment office sent out a 48 hr-notice saying they'd be doing roach pest control for the complex. oh joy. per the notice, we had to move all our crap into the middle of the rooms - and i mean all of it. every cabinet, drawer, closet, and storage area. it was like moving out.
btw, everyone who's been within earshot of me has heard this story and is probably sick of hearing about it. well, guess what? it pissed me off so much that now those same people (if in fact they read my blogs) are going to have to read about it, too. OR! they can just skip this part. if they want. y'know?...cuz they might be sick of it. ...
so after the whole pesticide thing we declared that we have way too much junk. thus, instead of throwing everything back where it was (anywhere we could cram it, basically) i began going through everything of mine to downsize. i didn't get rid of half of my stuff, which i had been aiming for, but i did let go of a ton of clothes, books, and other miscellaneous thing-a-muh-bobs.
i feel lighter. and even though i said i'd post some of the stuff on facebook for friends to have first dibs, when the time came i donated all of it. i just needed to be rid of it. i think that if i had gone through with typing it all out i would've started to justify why i had all of it in the first place and then it would've all ended up back in the bottom of my closet (or other cramming places). plus, some kid might not have ended up with my Tigger shirt, denim skirt with the gaudi broach thing, or endless collection of plastic dinosaurs. (don't worry...i kept most of them...)
i do feel a little sad, though. *sigh*
Sunday, May 9, 2010
i'm so awesome. there. i said it.
firstly, i would like to discuss the relocation of Jessa. as you all DON'T know, Jessa is a feral cat. she hates, or is deathly afraid of, humans and the like. also, she never belonged to me or my boyfriend. she was adopted by my sister who, for a long time, could not keep her (hence her staying with us and our 2 cats, Caska and Bobcat).
a couple of weeks past, my sister took her back. Bobcat took a field trip with Jessa and was scared out of her mind about it (being her first time in a cat carrier). it is safe to say that at this juncture in time, Jessa is being housed well.
However, Bobcat has her own opinions of the situation and will give an account at a later time.
the second thing i'd like to mention is that i have caught up with The Secret Life of the American Teenager. i LOVE that show. it's re-donk-u-lus, i know - but i really do. i'm just wishing and waiting for the day that Adrian will wear less lip gloss, Grace will become liberal, and Amy will grow up. seriously. how is she the mother of a kid and yet she seems to be the most spoiled, selfish brat to walk the planet? even in a suburb like that - with MOLLY RINGWALD for a mother, no less. yeesh.
in addition to The Secret Life, my other sister (@ocie7up) has gotten me hooked on Bones. the show is about the very interesting life of a forensic anthropologist who works with a steamy FBI agent (Booth, or David Boreanaz) and a team of scientists who solve murder investigations. it's awesome.
watch it. love it.
third on the list of subjects to discuss is the fact that i've had some job interviews. it's been slow cooking, but i'm hopeful.
the last subject to discuss is about remembering lost thought patterns from inebriation. ha. have you ever been so out of it, that the next day you had no idea what you were thinking when you wrote this down:
"Rome's tax system during the time of the last Caesar's reign."
OR
"OC's homework. Jonas Brothers. Nick J. Jemi. Blog."
OR
"pockets"
OR drew this:
Friday, April 2, 2010
For Shame
so i wrote a letter.
being that this is a first draft, maybe you could proofread for me...?
LETTER:
Dear Cherry Coke,
I love you. But I need to take a break. You will never stop being delicious to me - ours is a deep and effortless love. I did something very wrong - you know what...and I want to work things out. But I think in order to do that I need to clear my head and see where this road leads to. Please don't be mad at Coke, either. It's not Coke's fault - it's all mine. I know you probably don't want to see me...but if you want to talk you can find me on Facebook or Twitter (@micheon).
Love,
Micheon
Monday, March 29, 2010
I'm a bad person
this morning my boyfriend and i went to the Tempe Town Lake. while we were admiring the ducks and laughing about the time i saw some dude trying to surf (wet suit and all) i reached in my pocket to find some paper when my pen fell into the lake. my boyfriend was convinced that if i were to hold his sweater and grip the wall he could hover over the water and be able to save the pen. after several seconds of serious contemplation of this proposal, i decided the pen was too far out and if i were to drop him my swimming capabilities would be severely insufficient.
plus - yuck. that water looked disgusting.
so i watched the pen float away and knew it would haunt me all day. i hate litterbugs. i feel like i just dirtied the world. :(
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on another note! can you believe some guy was trying to surf in Tempe Town Lake? when i saw this unknown dude in the lake i was on a bus shuttle downtown and i remember the person sitting in front of me saying (loudly and to no one in particular), "he's gonna be waiting a long time!"
Friday, March 26, 2010
Pipe Dreams
i wish i made music. i mean really made music. yes, i know there are classes for that kind of thing - but i wish i was a natural musician. there are some things in this world that can never be taught - like how to write a great song and still have room in your head for more. now, some songs aren't necessarily written by the musician performing (Play My Music was actually not written by the JOBROS), this i know. but, it takes so much for all the people involved to know just what the song is supposed to feel like.
music is feeling. not simply sound, but feeling. i wish i could make people feel the way i'm feeling sometimes. sound is great an all, but i'd rather people felt what i felt more than heard what i'm saying. that is an amazing kind of power. to let someone else (if only one other person) into your head and experience the resounding power of shared emotion is...miraculous.
maybe one day i'll be able to write a song. countless times i've tried just to have to put those hopes back in the drawer for another attempt at another time. sigh. i guess it might be too much pressure on myself to try to squeeze forced miracle into my life. i'm so bad with pressure. i'm like that fumbling idiot in a scary movie who can't get their keys in the lock in time.
i suppose for now i'll just have to settle for dancing until my feet can't feel the ground - which is actually not so bad. :D
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Love Letters
it's funny how i don't remember all the things that i put into those letters, but i remember exactly how i was feeling when i wrote them. this worries me. ha!
it worries me because i am a hard-core emotional person. i used to believe in romance movies and love songs more than the earth that pushed up from underneath me. i imagined a world that only involved being swept off my feet, having a big fight/moment of truth that ultimately resulted in the best kiss of my life while soaked in the rain. i never could decide on the ending, though. but it was definitely more than dramatic.
luckily, i haven't strayed too much from this imagination. i still daydream all of the time about conversations i'll probably never have and scenes of passionate embraces. haha.
even more luckily, though, i have a real life. with real characters and real consequences. and lord am i glad that i never ended up with those kids who found themselves embarrassed and red-faced reading my sappy attempt at romance.
right now i'm where i'm supposed to be. sitting here, with my cats, my own messes to clean up, listening to music, and watching James grimace while he plays World Of Warcraft. I love him.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
if you have ever done Tae Bo before, you know what i'm talking about. it's one thing for Billie Blanks to go and be all positive and energetic the whole time, pep-talking you through the whole thing, but Shellie goes around having perfect form, stamina, and SMILING the entire time. SMILING! SMILING?!? SMILING. ugh! it makes me want to upper-cut her in the jaw. of course, it's probably also so toned that i'd only hurt myself.
sigh. needless to say, i have begun working out again. and i don't hate her. but i do.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
These arms were meant for sewing!
"One of the biggest challenges you'll face in your life is folding a fitted sheet." - Sweet Lady in How to Fold a Fitted Sheet YouTube
ain't that the truth.
today i did some volunteer work at a shelter/resource center for the homeless. when i got there the staff were amazed at just how little "customers" were coming in to be helped. so amazed that, unfortunately, i was given the task to stand around for an hour talking to Luis (another volunteer) about my vampire schedule, school, and the deliciousness of the cupcakes being given out.
finally, we were reassigned to another area and my biggest fear soon faced me. i was *DUN-DUN-DUN* told to fold a box of sheets.
now, folding flat sheets are easy-peasy (sp?), but i am the WORST fitted sheet folder. the absolute worst. my mom used to chase me away from the sheet folding because i was so clueless and so i never learned (or even saw) how to fold a fitted sheet. completely embarrassing, i know.
so how have i been folding them now that i'm on my own, you ask? well...let's just say my sheets tend to take up a maximum amount of mass AND volume wherever they are...
anways! immediately when i got home i youtubed how to fold a fitted sheet and a lovely woman created a video how-to who shared my thoughts on the matter.
so - for those of you who want to know (or just want to laugh at my expense) - here is the video link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Z5k9nWcuFc
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Today I Read Cat in the Hat 4x
today i did some babysitting. pulling an all-nighter is not recommended when one has to babysit. neither is accepting babysitting responsibilities when you've pulled and all-nighter. neither is having hot chocolate and spicy chips at the same time. that has nothing to do with babysitting - i know - but still very good insight nonetheless.
ok. time to fiddle with some electrical stuff...or whatever that mess is called behind the tv that is prohibiting me from watching cartoons.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Bobcat Harbors a Secret
Caska: "Amazing?"
Bobcat: Heck yes! That's nik-talk for sooper-crazy-great-purfec-fun-yummy-scrumpshus-and SUHWEET!
Jessa: Oh lord.
Caska: Bobcat, do you... .do you like Nick Jonas?
Bobcat: Almost as much as I like playing and eating. And sometimes when I'm playing, I sing nikjonus. I know all the words. (*proudly*)
Caska: All the words to which song?
Bobcat: All of them.
Caska: Wait, you're telling me that you know ALL the words to ALL of the songs on his NEW album?
Bobcat: Yah!
Jessa: How?
Bobcat: I listened to that little box with the strings all by myself!
Caska: What little box?
Bobcat: The one that nikjonus sings out of. That little ...box! You know! It's over there! (*points*)
Caska: You listened to Bon's iPod?! Were you careful?! The last 2 times we got in trouble because you chewed the earphones beyond repair!
Jessa: I hate that name. "Pod." Filth.
Bobcat: IT'S FINE, OK? Jeez! Wuns I got it to work it was no problim. Hmpf! ...Can we jus talk about the twitter thing?
Jessa: How do you know about Twitter, but you don't know what an iPod is?
Bobcat (*not hearing Jessa*): He should just say happy bertday to me-HER. I mean.
Amazing Day? Check!
Really, though. I've never been one for big showy events, so simple gestures and acts of kindness go a long way for me. From what I can see, though, OC's Mission has NOT been simple. She deserves some kinda payback. Of course, she probably doesn't think so, but she does.
Sisters have a crazy kind of love. No offense to brothers of the world, but sisters are intensely different. Especially Gorman sisters (this is to include my newly married sister - to me she'll always be a Gorman). There is nothing more wild and dangerously awesome as Gorman love.
Sigh. <3
i think i'll blog more at the end of this day. to update on the Jonas Brother/Twitter status. (crossing my fingers!)
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Don't forget that my birthday is coming up
music does that to me. great music. i think i'll make another singing youtube. i haven't done that in a way long time.
i think that's because even though i LOVE to sing, i don't think i'll ever be as good as i want. singing publicly makes me nervous. crazy nervous. i think i already mentioned my lunatic anxiety issues.
i'm a lunatic.
a singing lunatic.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Traveling = inevitable road rage on my part
i have no idea where this blog should begin and where it will end.
traveling.
the point of me including this in my blog was to note my apologies to my sister and my boyfriend.
i am terrible with pressure - even if it only exists in my head. haha. seriously, though. i recall yelling the other day, "ugh, mother fu**er!" at a parked motorcycle. haha.
wedding issues.
i have never attended or participated in a wedding until my sister's. it was chaotic. but it was also fun. we got to wear sparkly converse.
Hannah Montana.
i still can't get over the fact that Jackson is actually like 32 and married.
Selena Gomez.
ugh.
Nick Jonas.
Swoon.
Monday, February 1, 2010
i'm becoming a sloth
i want to sing. sing, sing, sing, at the top of my lungs. but it's 5am and i'm at my sister/friends' house and the gotta work later. ha. i suppose i'll have to settle for low singing.
before i graduated i made a bit of a list of things i needed to do after. here's a shortened list of how it went:
1. work out
2. cook more
3. sleep better
4. know the news
so far none of these has been checked off. :(
how do i still have no motivation? maybe because i feel like time has ceased in my life, but at the same time it's breathing down my neck. get off me, time!
ok. i'm done with this depression.
Friday, January 29, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
A Formal Critique of Nick Jonas's Album Preview
Whoa. I Just Took It There.
I think..
I need to talk about something else. Because I am embarrassed. (Notice that now I'm going to formalize this?) (That's how embarrassed I am.)
Um...
Cheesecake!
I don't know where I was going with that.
Ok...Now I think I should present the pictures I promise.
Friday, January 22, 2010
Ok, ok
Recently I've been having loads* of nightmares. While there is no specific theme, I have noticed that most of them deal with survival, being lonely, and especially fear. Could this have something to do with the blogs, books, and the recent crazy weather I have been absorbed by? Most likely, yes. Will I discontinue said absorption? Probably not.
It's just that it interests me so. Since forever ago I have been, well, not "obsessed," but VERY interested in survival lore. Am I ready for a catastrophe? No - by all means, no. BUT - I do have information about survival ready, and had I the money I would definitely have survival gear ready to jam. So am I paranoid?
No way! But do I walk around with my keys out, size up buildings for raptor**/zombie attacks, visualize*** escape from would-be criminals, and see weapons in any form wherever I'm at? Heck yes, dude! Don't you? Well, you should.
Ugh, I wanted to continue talk of paranoia, but the cats are tired of me and want to talk about the weather. Well, Bobcat is more excited than any of them, really.
[By the by, you should become familiar with this website - (great zombie comic by a friend of mine) http://allmannerofbad.com/]
*notice my Harry Potter voice?
**as a former dinosaur, I know how those creeps roll
***and practice! practice is key!
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And now, the account of the cats.
Bobcat: It. Was. Scary.
Caska: Yeah, it was loud and definitely not what we're used to, but I wasn't too scared.
Jessa: Actually it was rather calming for me, aside from the thunder.
Bobcat: I had to sleep by Caska. I kept dreaming of water. Lots and lots of water (which is beyond scary).
Caska: Well, yeah...that's what it was, dummy - water!
Bobcat: Yeah, but it was on the OTHER side of the window. Things that are on the other side of the window can't get you. But in my dream it was on THIS side of the window (points at floor).
Caska: Well, yeah, I guess that is scary.
Jessa: If you ask me, this side of the window ain't exactly peachy, either. Humans are loud, obnoxious, and probably mean.
Bobcat: What's an ub-nocks-yus, Jessa?
Jessa: Ugh! Go away. I'm done with this interview.
Bobcat: Caska, what's an ub-nocks-yus?
Caska: "Obnoxious" means annoying or offensive, Bobcat.
Bobcat: Obnox-us. Obnox-us. Annoying. Obnox-us. Annoying. WAIT! Humans aren't mean! Are they, Caska?
Caska: No, Bobcat. At least ours aren't. Jessa has probably not known the best ones.
Bobcat: What ones has she known?
Caska: I'm not really sure.
Bobcat:*Gasp*
Jessa and Caska: What?
Bobcat: She left that circle thing out!
Jessa: You mean the hairtie?
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The rest of the interview consisted of Bobcat playing with the hairtie, Caska waiting to play with it later, and Jessa going to sleep again. Tomorrow I'll post pictures of each of them.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Just Great
Now I know the question that is bugging you at this point is: So what kind of dresses look good on former dinosaurs?
ANSWER: Halter tops
Have I found said halter top? No. No, I haven't.
Being without a job sucks. Hard. Sigh.
Oh! Here's a drawing of the sock I wore today.
Dude, I really need to invest in time to learn graphic stuff. Haha...Erp.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Yo, kid! Cut it out!
Society (myself included) keeps getting lazier and lazier with both written and spoken word. Pretty soon we won't even need the post office or books or libraries or...paper. Paper? Ugh! Now don't even get me started on how wonderful paper is. I know that it's more eco-friendly to use less paper, but do we really need to get rid of it altogether? Everything these days is digital - heck (can I say hell?) even this writing is online. I'm ashamed to tell you that I do not really recall what my handwriting looks like. That, my friends, is disgusting.
Years ago people put so much stake into their writing. So much so that even their handwriting was primped and practiced. If one wanted to be heard they needed to be careful about not only their words, but the appearance and effort of it as well. Care and effort. What happened to it all?
On to other news:
Today I drew a picture of broccoli.
It looks horrible.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
F-U Technology
Because of this whole situation, I have decided that humanity needs to go back to the basics again. What ever happened to good ole' butter-churning, helping your fellow neighbor rebuild their home, or ...wait a second. Why are all the things I'm thinking of coming from images of Farmville? Dude. I guess it's just me that needs to go back to basics. Or maybe I just need to figure out this technology. Sigh...
Well, I'm hungry. So...see ya later? Yeah. See ya later.
A New Hope...A New Beginning...A New...Uh...Blog
I have a new found love for designing stuff. Though I am extremely new to graphic design, I want to expand my knowledge base and one day do it for a living. Of course these days everyone and their cat have a dream to do graphic design, but I figure that I could be swell at it with the right teaching.
(By the way, my cat, Caska also peddles with design - and she's good.)
Meanwhile, I just graduated from ASU and am living on hopes and dreams (+ my boyfriend's paycheck). I'm spending my time going over my resume for the bazillionth time, avoiding exercise, and getting upset with Caska for being too furry.
I'm always up for a popsicle (red ones, please), playing Rock Band, and dinosaur talk. So...if you're up for any of those - contact me.